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| Love is a crazy thing. It takes you by the heart and throws you places that otherwise seem unreachable. It changes your outlook and your emotions to the point where, I dont think it's irreversible. I'm sorry, but thanks to the last 7 months of my life I just don't think I can go back. Anyone else who has been in love knows what I'm talking about. I may have made a few mistakes, but all in all, I can only make so many. I know who I love, why I love him, and for what reasons I love him. He is my best friend and my other half.. there just aren't two people out there for one person like me. He knows exactly how to make me laugh, how to make me happy, and what makes me cry. He knows what I'm thinking and I don't even have to say it out loud. I love him for the conversations we have, the things he's taught me, and who he's helped me to become. I just can't change this (not that I would ever want to).. and recent events have come to help me understand this more fully. I just pray that he understands, I need him.
...wow
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| because of lack of time, there has been no updates for 2 months. I'm up at school now (Cornell University), and I have been for a week now. Um, besides that I've been to 2 frat parties, made alot of new friends, already had one allnighter, registered for all my classes, bought my textbooks, wrote an essay, and sortof broke up with my boyfriend. Long distance actually isn't that hard, but it's only been a week. I guess we're still together.. I still talk to him just as much and about the same things so that's enough for me. And of course I still love him, I don't think that can change. I'm pretty sure that when I come home we'll still be together. This saturday is our 6 month anniversary and he said he already sent me something in the mail (this was after we broke up).. so. yea. i dont really know but for the time i'm not questioning.
My birthday is in a week!! September 3rd for all you who don't know, I will be turning 18. There's already a party for me and this other girl on my floor named ariela on facebook.. we will be having fun. Yea seth (lyons, from central.. we hang out like every other night) says it's going to be good so i'm excited lol.
OK and my contact info for any1 that said to me that they wanted it is:
Katie Davis
Cornell University
Jameson Hall 1533
Ithaca, NY 14853
I still have my cell phone with the same number (267-496-2922)
Ok guys, keep in touch I guess. If people comment and say they want me to update then I might start again. But I need like 5 people to say that to give me some motivation.
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| Summer has now officially begun, and I know that's true because I don't even know what the date is. I know it's Friday because I'm supposed to be at work in like 30 minutes and i'm still in my pj's. . . . . oh well. Alot of stuff has happened so I'll make a little list of things that have happened:
JUNE 2ND- haha, I'm so far behind. . Prom was AMAZING. Nate looked so good and we had so much fun, we had fun the whole weekend from beginning to end. In the limo.. taking pictures.. eating dinner.. dancing the whole time.. it was a blast. Then we came back to my house and slept over then the next day we all hung out again. Spending my prom with the boy who I love, it couldn't have been better!
JUNE 14TH- GRADUATION!! Once again, I am very late. It was so fun though, and at the same time it was very sad that it was the last time as a class that we were all together. Alot of people were crying but I wasn't that sad. I just got the feeling that I needed to say goodbye to each and every person because it wouldnt be like I could just see them on Monday. I graduated with a degree, as well as being a distinguished student. I got Barnwell gold and I managed that even after slacking off 4th quarter. Im proud of myself! I think I left Central on a good note, there was one person inparticular in 264 who I've had this rocky history with since.. idk, 9th grade? And we barely talked this year but I'm glad we ended on a good note, now I think I can finally get my mind off it.
AFTER GRADUATION- Went out to eat with Sarah's family and mines (my uncle and cousin included). It was nice spending time with the fam. Then I came home and my wonderful boyfriend came over and gave me the most beautiful braclet as my graduation present. It is silver and has glass beads on it as well as pearls (real ones!!) and then two silver hearts on the end and a silver heart charm that has my name on it. I love him and I love it so much, he didn't have to buy me anything and his effort and thoughts that went into it were enough by themselves.
THE TIME AFTER GRADUATION- Probably the most boring. It was tradtional, laying around, eating food, and watching tv time. I had to get into the summer spirit. My mother got mad at me and thought I was going through some type of depression so she made me get ANOTHER job, so now I have 2. At least I'll hav money.
OCEAN CITY- Me and Sar crashed with a bunch of people during Senior Week in Ocean City, we were there for a couple days. It was so fun, it consisted of lying on the beach for hours (in my black Polo string bikini I might add. . . ) getting nice and tan, then goin on the boardwalk. Me, Sarah, Ryan McGreavy, and Brittany went down to Wildwood one night and, after some people got rather intoxicated (no names included), Ryan got his tongue pierced and the girls got their belly buttons pierced. I GOT MY BELLY BUTTON PIERCED! It looks so sexy and isnt really red or anything. . Its got a little pink rhinestone on a silver charm. Its cute. But when I came home my mom wasn't too happy about that 1, especially since Im not 18 and it involved some lying and some flirting lol. I got 20 dollars off too! I'm hiding it from my dad though because Im scared hes got go crazy if he sees lol.
Yea so, Im now home again, trying to plan what Im gonna be doing for a while. I think just working and being with Nate. I see him almost everyday except friday and saturday. He's moving into his brothers apartment and is going to this summer program at Haverford in july. Brandon ( his brother), who Im cool with, invited me to come over and stay for a little bit. I definetly will be takin up his offer on that 1. His brother is sexy too but nate would hate me if i said that out loud lol. He's a 20 yrs old, and he has a twin, and looks like nate just bigger wit more muscle. If thats not sexy idk what is, but hes really cool. But I love my honey Nate.. . 4 MONTHS=JUNE 27TH!!
Ok this got ridiculously long, if u made it to the end Im very impressed. I'll prolly only post like 1 more time before I leave for school lol. If anthing happens I'll keep ya updated. Until then. . . . cya | | |
| I haven't written in a bit and surprisingly some ppl are still checkin my site.. so:
Everyday the year is coming closer and closer to the end. I have mixed feelings about everything being over; I'm ready to leave Philly and begin at Cornell. I'm not too worried about losing friends because I know that I will keep in touch with the important ones, or at least the ones who care about me and want to still keep in touch. I know I am ready to leave my house and family, I need a break. I'm in the process now of selling my horse, and this is definetly close to the hardest part of leaving home. He's not sold yet, so nothing has really changed yet.
Nate nate nate nate. This is the hardest part of leaving. I don't know what I'm going to do... I know that when I leave, we are over. The word over sounds so permanent tho. It hurts so bad though because I've never been in love before and I love this boy soo much. I know he feels the same way. Call me dumb or in denial but I'm going to wait for him. No guy seems like they could be better for me then him. I feel that I can look and look but it would be impossible to find someone. We fit together so well. He knows all this too, and it makes having to leave even harder. I can't pretend to him that us breakin up doesn't affect me, because he already knows everything. I don't know how I can just be friends with someone who I'm in love with. This is definetly going to take a period of adjustment. . . . .
sorry, I really did not mean to get semi-emotional here. All else I was going to say is that I'm looking forward to all the events at the end of the year: Prom, Dorney Park, Sr. Picnic, Showcase, Grauation, Wildwood, and Ocean City. yessss I'll get to use the 5 bikini's I've accumulated since Winter '04. Haha.. this summer is gonna be so fun!
-katie | | |
| ASHANTI LYRICS
"Don't Leave Me Alone"
(feat. 7 Aurelius)
Waddup Ashanti?
Heyyy
Mmm mmmmmm
Dont leave me alone [x3]
Boy wont you just lay with me stay with me,
I would love it if you had your way with me, cuz I just...
Cant get enough of your touch.
You do the things I need to me so much,
I dont wanna let you leave, I dont wanna let you go,
So... dont leave me alone [x3]
Ooooooo
Now if I could just be wit you, breathe wit you, if you woulda asked me
I would leave with you I would go... around the globe as long as I know
I will be right by your side wherever you go I aint gonna let you leave
I dont wanna let you go, ooh I need you here with me
Dont leave me alone
(I dont wanna leave you alone)
Dont leave me alone
(I dont wanna see you go)
Dont leave me alone [x2]
Wherever you go... I will follow
Dont leave me alone
Cuz I dont wanna be alone... I dont wanna let you go
Dont leave me alone
One of the reasons that I never wanna be alone is that I dont like what happens to me when I'm in your arms
It feels like home
Where I belong
Ohh baby baby
Cuz my heart smiles from inside out, only you can do it to me baby, you can do it to me so... I cant leave you alone
Dont leave me alone
I just wanna be in ur arms all night long
Dont leave me alone
I just wanna be in ur arms all night long
Dont leave me alone
Ooooooooooo
Ooo ooooh baby baby baby oooh baby baby baby
Be alone.....
Dont leave me alone
Dont leave me alone
I just wanna be in your arm
Dont leave me alone.....
 this song makes me sad but I think thats because I relate to it
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